Bye-byes

"Sorry, I don't want to be rude, but being sweet is not in my blood. You're a nice girl and I don't deserve this sweetness."

Probably the last text of the entire conversation history of four years.

When after almost 3 and a half years there was a ray of hope for the cracks to mend, I hear this in the next 15 days.

Amazing gifts from life! A roller-coaster of emotions it is.

Things and people change with time, and because time runs in only 1 direction, the changes cannot be reverted back. What remains is only hopes to be with that, one day, all will become just the way it was.

Post-"The Meet"

It took me longer to decide whether to post this one or not. I'm sulking from the past two days now. This was supposed to be so much of excitement and something rejuvenating, but just not what is was...

Forgetting all that happened in the past between us, I wished to see that smile when we saw each other, not the stern face and a formal wave. That very moment a thought struck my mind, is this the same person I was so excited to meet?

A normal chit-chat and it was over. I didn't even find him happy to see me.

Time changes, but I guess it changes the bonding and the comfort too. I wish time takes me back to the same moments I wish to live once again...

You!

This blush was long lost. This smile was never expected to come back. This twinkle in my eye when i see the name flashing on my mobile screen, this skipping of a beat by my heart reading a bye, how? And why?

There were times when job was stressful and life had become monotonous. And nothing has changed now at the work front, except for the wait in every minute which passes, to get a single text from the person.

And during all this time, nostalgia strikes. At the hidden points in the heart and brain where it affects the most.

I still remember the touch, the talks, the shivers, the hugs, the bites, the abuses, the tickles and the fights as well... When I realize that every single bit is so fresh in my mind, it sends a chill down my spine, taking me to a state of trance where there is no distance, just the two of us.

And for all these feelings, thoughts, emotions and the numerous uninterpreted pacing heartbeats, the one and only reason is YOU! *loveyouColonel* <3 <3

The Continuation

I never expected things to happen again or continue from the same lines where i had kind of last read 'The End'. Not in this lifetime at least.

Who knew it was just a 'to-be-continued'

Everything is the same. The stupid butterflies which come in my stomach at every message beep, the just cute smiles, the longing to meet, the we-are-indirectly-making-plans-with-each-other, the want to be together.. It was the same when it was, when it was ending and even when it had already ended.

I'm secretly hoping that we celebrate this Xmas together at Mangalore. *hugsforyouColonel* :)X