Happily Married

The news had spread like wild fire in the entire office. And in an office having a headcount of just 120-odd employees it had to.

"Yes, I'm getting married", she replied to the n^th person confirming this from her in the day.

"Congratulations!", he said.

"Thank you!"

Wanting to get more details from her, he waited for a few seconds and when she didn't help to continue the conversation, he walked away smiling.

 What had even spread was the fact that though it was her first, it wasn't her going-to-Be's first.

She had never discussed her personal life with any of her colleagues except for that day.

Two months ago when both the families had agreed, she was so overwhelmed that the next day, the first thing she did was that she poured out all her emotions in front of a female colleague on the adjacent desk. She was good friends with her and she also knew that this female was a big-mouth, yet out of sheer excitement, she couldn't hold back the joy spilled all the beans.

She knew that everyone was so keen to know why she chose this person.

A week later, at the wedding reception, she read out a few words for her groom. Words which answered all the questions, yet none.

Hi Mak. I always wished to say a few words to you and there can't be an opportunity better than now. I know two months is a very short time, but then, as all know, love doesn't need time to happen. You're the one with whom I see my life blossoming in love. Your kids are only kids I'll never find irritating. Many of them were inquisitive about me and you, about how will we be able to make it, whether our marriage will sustain or not, but then for me life is all about following my heart. There will be times when we will have our share of arguments, not come to the same conclusion about the stupidest things on earth. Music, bookshelves, TV shows, movies, date venues and many more. It can be that I wont be able to bond with the kids that sooner, as you and some others expect, but I'm determined that one day, I will. I'm determined that I will be the wife you want, the mother you want your wife to be for your kids and the friend-in-their-spouse which every person desires to have. I'll make it for both of us.
 

Oh she? She's a Psycho

"Why doesn't she ever mix up with anyone in the class?"

"She's a psycho. Don't bother. She's been the same from the past two years and I guess she'll be the same in the coming year and the rest of her life."

Tamannah overheard every single word. She knew those two and in fact, the entire class and the college professors too had the same opinion for her. She hardly reacted , yet deep down, inside her heart she felt worse.

She was depressed. Her heart was wounded. She had lost in love. But then, the one who loves truly always becomes the ultimate joke.

She was in pain. She had lost faith in people, in God, in love. She was dying every moment from within. But he was happy. He was in bliss. He was in his best phase of life. Had he known and realized the extent to which Tamannah loved him, he would have been one of the luckiest people of this Universe to experience true love.

People called her mad, psycho, ill and unwell. No one tried to look into her eyes or feel her pain. No one ever made her cry even once just to help her release all her bottled-up emotions. All they did is ignored her, joked about her and said, "Oh she, avoid her. She's a psycho."

The Longing, Forever - Continued

Over a month passed without him. They spoke every night. About food, weather, his meetings, love and more love.

Some days she used to recollect how life transformed from the bad to the best, and how all this would have never been possible, had they not been there for each other through hardships. There was a phase when they weren't on talking terms, living separately and even thinking of a divorce. Financially, mentally and emotionally broke. But they chose to give love another chance and it gradually healed all the wounds.

It was 24th of November. She was overwhelmed on his surprise return making it one of those moments to be cherished forever. That night Tamannah vowed that she'll always be for him, till death takes them apart.

Two days later, the bright sun brought with itself another meeting with the Board of Directors and his C.E.O. over lunch for him in Mumbai.

"Tamannah, I'l text u when I'm done with the meeting. Hoping for one big shot and then making babies."

Tamannah laughed at him and placed a lingering kiss on his lips to wish him all the luck.

…

Venue: The Taj, Mumbai

…

It's been 6 years and 24 days now. She still is waiting for him to return. Every night she still reads that last text from him before crying and falling asleep.

"Baby, the meeting went good. I'll be home in another 3 hours. I have brought one world for you today; the other world will be tonight. And trust me; you'll be one sexy Mom. :)"

The Longing, Forever

"I promise to you that I'll bring the world for you." Saying this, he kissed Tamannah, making his love, his bride forever.

Those days were just love. An amazing job of a Data Analyst, Star Performer of the company, earning a pay sufficient for the couple to live a luxurious life, time and space for each other, their life was a fairy-tale.

And one such day was the 25th of  October.

Tamannah, I have a business trip scheduled on the 15th of next month. Its going to be a long stay in the States. We should go shopping on the weekend, what say?

Sure! And how about some chicken to hog-on post the shopping?

Oh! How better can you know me darling?

Laughter spread throughout their house along with the happiness which was reflecting on both their faces.

Time passed in bliss and then the eve arrived. That evening was reserved for the ballroom and candle light. She, in the black-strapped Zara gown and he, dressed in his best UCB, dancing away to the romantic melody, just perfect. And more perfect than that was the night which followed. It was more than intimacy. That night their souls were pleased. Burning flames with desires soaring the mercury levels to the highest. And then was the moment, a state of ecstasy. A feeling which lingered slowly in the heart that we are for each other.

Then came the beautiful yet difficult morning.

"I'll miss you honey. Come soon."

"I'll miss you too Tamannah. You're my world. I'll come back soon. If the deal works out, it can prove to be the Ace. And I can then get the world for you, hun."

"I already have your love and more than what i ever desired for. You're my world. Best wishes. Do call me when you get time."

The flight was about to take off. One last message before I go flight-mode, he said to himself.

"Tamannah, I love you. And I promise that I'll bring the world for you."

[To be continued... See more @ http://pbh91.blogspot.com/2014/12/the-longing-forever-continued.html]

A Prayer coming from Every Heart

Oh my Allah, Give me devotion, so that I can pray to You, to save and protect the innocent. Ameen!

Oh my Allah, Give me strength, so that I can prove to be helpful, in any which way, to those who need me. Ameen!

Oh my Allah, Give me love, so that I can spread it to others, and no one cultivates hatred for each other. Ameen!

Oh my Allah, Listen to me, so that this blood-shedding game of vengeance ends soon. Ameen!

Mercy my Lord! Mercy we cry for! Rehem!

Bye-byes

"Sorry, I don't want to be rude, but being sweet is not in my blood. You're a nice girl and I don't deserve this sweetness."

Probably the last text of the entire conversation history of four years.

When after almost 3 and a half years there was a ray of hope for the cracks to mend, I hear this in the next 15 days.

Amazing gifts from life! A roller-coaster of emotions it is.

Things and people change with time, and because time runs in only 1 direction, the changes cannot be reverted back. What remains is only hopes to be with that, one day, all will become just the way it was.

Post-"The Meet"

It took me longer to decide whether to post this one or not. I'm sulking from the past two days now. This was supposed to be so much of excitement and something rejuvenating, but just not what is was...

Forgetting all that happened in the past between us, I wished to see that smile when we saw each other, not the stern face and a formal wave. That very moment a thought struck my mind, is this the same person I was so excited to meet?

A normal chit-chat and it was over. I didn't even find him happy to see me.

Time changes, but I guess it changes the bonding and the comfort too. I wish time takes me back to the same moments I wish to live once again...

You!

This blush was long lost. This smile was never expected to come back. This twinkle in my eye when i see the name flashing on my mobile screen, this skipping of a beat by my heart reading a bye, how? And why?

There were times when job was stressful and life had become monotonous. And nothing has changed now at the work front, except for the wait in every minute which passes, to get a single text from the person.

And during all this time, nostalgia strikes. At the hidden points in the heart and brain where it affects the most.

I still remember the touch, the talks, the shivers, the hugs, the bites, the abuses, the tickles and the fights as well... When I realize that every single bit is so fresh in my mind, it sends a chill down my spine, taking me to a state of trance where there is no distance, just the two of us.

And for all these feelings, thoughts, emotions and the numerous uninterpreted pacing heartbeats, the one and only reason is YOU! *loveyouColonel* <3 <3

The Continuation

I never expected things to happen again or continue from the same lines where i had kind of last read 'The End'. Not in this lifetime at least.

Who knew it was just a 'to-be-continued'

Everything is the same. The stupid butterflies which come in my stomach at every message beep, the just cute smiles, the longing to meet, the we-are-indirectly-making-plans-with-each-other, the want to be together.. It was the same when it was, when it was ending and even when it had already ended.

I'm secretly hoping that we celebrate this Xmas together at Mangalore. *hugsforyouColonel* :)X